Friends??

Friends, friends everywhere but no one to bank upon. I had this guy in my class during my school days who always claimed to my friend, who always used to say that I’m always with you, you call me anytime, I’ll be there but when once I was in need, he was nowhere to be seen around.

Entered college, again met new set of friends who used to claim that they will never leave me or each other in any case. Whatever we do, first priority would be our friends, that’s what I got to hear from them every time. Left college and came to workplace and once when I needed my college friends, like earlier, they were nowhere to be found.

Entered workplace, again new set of friends, who claimed that whenever I’ll be in any need besides work, they will always be there. I thought now I have come to my workplace, and these people would not be immature as my friends were. But against my expectations and as usual, I was wrong. I never knew that I’m being spied on, I never knew that those people who called me their friend, would feel insecure because of my success rate, because I’m growing faster than they did.

In the meanwhile, I came across many friends who met, stayed and left. Some even don’t trust me but call me as their best friend. I don’t know how could they call somebody a friend whom they don’t have any trust.

But it was never that all people did same thing with me. I am still surrounded by few who are left from my school and college days, whom I can bank upon, whom I can trust blindly, who I know would deliver a cake and flowers on my parents’ birthday or anniversary, whom we call our chaddi buddies or 3.00 am friends.

But I still have a question in mind that why people come closer when they have to ditch you into the ground to the extent. Should I trust a new person who calls me his friend?

I think, I’d be stupid if I trust the person now in any case… What do you say???

Wait, for a short phase or for Lifetime???

Wait, always used for a short span of time. We have heard many people saying, "Hey, can you please wait for a while" or "Wait for a minute, please" but when a person who is close to you says it, is it for a moment or for a lifetime. When a close friend or someone you love says, “Wait for me", for how long they want us to wait for them. For how long should we wait for them? Many philosophers and thinkers would say that when a close friend or a loved one would ask you to wait, you should do till the time they come back to you, people madly in love would say that they can wait for lifetime but is it so? Do such relationships exist which could command lifetime wait from a person. People tend to make relationships out of sheer selfishness, to get their work done and leave as if you never existed for them, they might not recognize you after some point of time. Is there any one left on whom one can depend blindly, after talking to them one could feel lighthearted, are we left with 3 am relations anymore?

Once walking down the life street, I saw a stranger who looked familiar with friendly smile on the face. But it took no time for that person to remove that smile from the face and as mentioned earlier, that person only looked familiar.

One spends his entire life in waiting for the person who had once asked to wait and after some odd years when the person returns, asks strangely that why were you waiting? Who asked you to wait that long? Is it worthy to wait in relationships which u make and god don't?

People say that life comes a full circle but it would be correct to say that people come full circle. They take the complete round and come back to you just to make you realize that you did wrong by waiting for them. Are they saying themselves that they are not that worthy for whom one should wait or are they saying that you are fool who spent his life in waiting for them while they were roaming around and having fun.

Every individual has this question in mind but is afraid to ask because everybody knows the answer but they lack guts to face their own question which in turn give more pains...

Why is it so?

Why is it so? Aisa Kyun hota hai ki jisko hum chahte hain, jisko paane ke liye kuchh bhi karne ko raazi ho jaate, jiske saath ek pal bitaana ko tarste hain, jiske saath har lamha ek suhana ehsaas ho jaata hai, jiske lie saari zindagi intezaar karna manzoor hone lagta hai, woh ek din aa ke kehta hai ki shayad hamara saath yahin tak tha, aisa kyun hota hai? Why is it so?



Aisa kyun hota hai ki hum jis ko paane ki zid pakad lete hain woh kabhi hamare saath hamesha nahin rehta, kyun humko aise mod pe chhod ke chale jaate hain jahan humein unki sabse zyaada zaroorat hoti hai aur kyun hum unki sab wafayein bhula kar unhe ek pal mein bewafa keh dete hain? Kyun hum unki saari acchhaiyan ek taraf kar ke unki woh buraaiyan count karni shuru kar dete hain jo un mein kabhi thi hi nahin. Kyun hum apne kadam bhatakne ka dosh unhe dete hain, aisa kyun hota hai? Why is it so?



Aisa kyun hota hai jise hum apna banana chahte hain woh kisi aur ka saath chahte hain, kyun hum unke sabse acchhe dost hote hue bhi unke humsafar nahin ban sakte, kyun woh hamesha sachhai jaan ne ke baad ki hum unhe dost se kuchh zyaada maante hain, kyun woh humse dooriyan bana lete hain? Kyun ek acchha dost ek acchha humsafar nahin ban sakta, kyun yeh hamesha ehsaas dilaya jaata hai ki hum hamesha dost hain aur dost rahein toh hi acchha rahega, kyun hum dosti ko pyaar ka naam dene se darte hain, kyun hum dosti ko ek aise rishtey ka naam nahin de sakte jise duniya mein sabse oopar aur pavitra maana gaya hai, aisa kyun hota hai? Why is it so?



Kya pyaar do logon ko kareeb laata hai ya un mein darar paida karta hai, kyun pyaar logon ko khushiyan dene ki jagah un mein dooriyan badha deta hai, kya aaj pyaar sirf apna matlab poora karne ka ek zariya ban ke reh gaya hai, kya pyaar par se logon ka vishwas uth gaya hai, kya aaj log matlab ke liye rishtey banate hain, aisa kyun hota hai? Why is it so?

Would request you to kindly comment and reply to my questions....

Is this Love?

In this ever running blind race, I was running to achieve what I wanted out of my life. I wanted to win the race and was not running to build my health, like a morning jog. People were giving me tough competition on every route I took, they had hurdles set for me on every path. But somehow I knew my way, that only law of attraction was helping me although I never noticed it.

While running, I saw a beautiful face and it seemed that it was cheering for me saying, "Amit, you have to win this race, for me, for everyone you love" making me more determined to reach my destination. As I was crossing various check points, I saw that face was fading out but I kept running with perseverence and consistency believing that I would see that face again at the end point. Believing my inner voice I kept running for almost 9 years, just to see that face again. Then at one check point, I saw that face again and I thought I realized what I wanted to an extent but suddenly shocked to see that she was cheering for my competitor. I was shunned by this but that face gave me power and strength to run, I could not say anything to her and understood that this was not my destination and thanked her to give me zeal to run faster and faster.

I am still running to achieve my goals and with a hope that there might be someone who will cheer for me. It's not that I wanted someone to cheer for me, it was just despite hurdles in the way, the route and journey was more pleasure and smooth....

Who Am I?

From the political capital of the Indian sub-continent, I came to economic capital of the country for the sake of better job prospects, higher living of standard and all that a man desires out of his life.

It was fine sunny morning when I got down from Mumbai Rajdhani at Mumbai Central. My friend came to pick me up. As we were walking down the platform, I heard somebody sayin "Lo aa gaya phir koi hamare shehar mein apna ghar banane" (See, somebody else has come to make our city his home). I was bit astonished at his remark as I knew something like this would happen but it would happen so early, I never expected. I felt like that I've gone to London and this remark was made by some brit. This city gave me cold welcome but I was clear that I have to make my living in this city.

After 2 months, When I went to Delhi, my hometown, where I was born and brought up, the city which has seen my family's 6 - 7 generations, I heard people calling me, "Bhai tu toh mumbai wala ho gaya" (Brother, you are a mumbaikar now). It came as a shock to me because I never thought of it.

I am not clear now where do i belong to. Few people decided my native place in flash of a second. I am still not aware why are we creating boundaries among ourselves? Britishers and some our best, thoughtful leaders did it in past and we are still paying for it, then why are we not learning from it? Why a person is known by his native land and not his work, contribution to the society?

I think I'll spend my whole life but won't get answer to this. Would request somebody to reply if he/she knows the answer.

Journey So Far

Teaming with constellation of dreams, I'm a son of a middle class family. My parents never let me compromise on my dreams, they gave me whatever I wanted. Yes, its true, I had to convince them that why I need that stuff then only they used to buy me that stuff. In my initial days of education, everytime I got passed and promoted with a rank in my class, without even asking, my gift used to be there waiting for me to be opened.

Days went by like the same. When I grew up, I started seeing dreams with open eyes. I started imagining how my life would be if I could achieve this position or if I could make that much amount of money. When I was in my 10th grade, I aspired to be a Software Engineer but by that time, my mind was more into extra curricular activities rather than in studies. Along with that, there was a girl in my class who was my one of the best friend from 6th grade (I believe), I had a crush on her but never had guts to tell her. After we finished our 10th grade, I could not opt for Science as my marks were not upto the mark. First time I compromised in my life by opting for Commerce but to add to my problems, I could not opt for Commerce cuz I scored less in Mathematics (Like every normal boy). I had to switch over to some other school. In all this, I had lost contact with my ever lasting crush. I was doing pretty much well in my new school in studies, sports and extra curricular activities. Because of my interest in every activity taking place in school, I was nominated as Vice School Captain. Although I couldn't make it to the designation, I had to settle down with School Prefect in my 11th and 12th grade. Life was more of a fun in school days. Placing crackers near water tanks, in toilets, in staff rooms, during morning assembly was part of our routine during diwali days. Undoubtedly, we were held responsible for every misdeed happened in school. One day after 2 years, I got to know from my friend that the girl I had crush on had gone to some other country and luckily or coincidently, we met again online. I had serious crush on her and wen I met her again, I confessed to her but she said she needs some time to think. Everything was fine and our exams were sitting on our heads. This time, I didn't want to ruin my exams so gave a hault to my interactions for some time. Being a distinction holder in subjects like Account, Business Studies, Computer Science and English, my teachers had tremendous faith in me and I was overburdened by it than by studies. Luckily, their faith turned out to be true and again I scored distinctions in almost every subject. When I entered my 11th grade, my career interest shifted to Journalism from being a Software specialist. After my 12th grade, I chose Journalism as my subject in grads. Never being much into studies, i was more often indulged into some other activities. Our group of friends was more into SO CALLED public service, fighting for the rights of fellow students, and what not and making sure that we never come into limelight or else we would be suspended. Everything was going as expected, results were impressive which got me an internship with a leading english daily in New Delhi. As expected from me by my friends, I never went there after 2 days of joining. Teachers were impressed by our participation in activities, getting good results. Somehow in our last semester, something went wrong from both the sides. Teachers couldn't complete their course and we made a scene outside our MD's office with me being the main culprit because unknowingly or rather say in aggression, I abused my MD on his secretary's face, which made an issue and screwed me to an extent. I was barred from final exams. I was asked to get my parents. But I was also killer, I told my mom everything about what happened. Although she wanted to come but I told her that a letter from her will do. I got a letter faxed from her into my institute to submit and I dont know how each of the admin staff started praising me along with my principal so my MD had no choice than to issue me my roll number. We cleared our grads with good grades. By that time I had lost interest in journalism and wanted to opt for Public Relations.

I joined a PG Diploma in PR and went for some training. I could perform well in my mid terms as well as in my training and in 1 and a half month, I became permanent employee of the company, a close knitted company. I got to do some prestigious assignments of my life in my initial days like for JCB India, OCM Suitings, Aepona, Ms. Kiran Bedi, His Highness Sh. Jyotiraditya Scindia. After all that, it was a time for me to move, to move out of my territory, to conquer the world and then I decided to move to Mumbai, city of dreams, city of opportunities, city full of glamor. All this while, my love for my friend was increasing. I met her once during her last visit to India and talked over our relation. She said complete no-no but after that she said she need time to think. Time went by, I came to mumbai. Its been now 8 years, I have been waiting my friend to respond to my proposal. In my new office, I could prove myself very well in a short span of time. I joined as an Account Executive in May 2008 and in October 2008, I was an Account Manager.

Professionally, I think I'm going great, drawing a good salary at a nascent stage, still dreaming with open eyes to accompalish various things in life, to lead a lavish life with my family, venturing into new arenas of my profession. Life has been more like a stock market to me, with lots of ups n downs, a roller coaster ride; still trying to understand its core message.